prodding that artistic side to come out. Ü

For several days, I have been obssessing about my artistic side to come out and manifest itself. I tried and tried in several fields: music, drawing, photography, writing.

So, here's a report on my "progress" so far:

In music - I try to sing more and more for I had proven that lack of practice makes one sound, uh, ugly. Haha. Sorry for that term. Also, I am continuing my guitar lessons, which aren't going very far, for I can only play when I am home and that's not very frequent. Anyway, at least I am making an effort, ayt?

In drawing - uh, this is area where I can say that I practice most. I mean, doodling is effortless! My creations lie amidst vectors and circuits...no wonder they all look anything but happy! haha. Here are some of my recent doodles [I used a G-tech with .3 tip, that's why the lines are sooooo thin]...which arent much to look at but I like them, still. Ü

pissed/nonplussed. happy/giddy. surprised

this is me last wednesday! haha

In photography - I only use my phone [which has a camera] in taking pictures, but I am determined to make them [the pics] look good. As you can see from the pics of my doodles, haha, I am failing miserably. Ü A sample of one of my few [possibly, this is the only one and it is not much] decent pics.

In writing - erm, I can't say I did anything on this. Every writing activity I engaged in is purely academic, and are all boring. Haha.

I guess, it is just practical to say that my artistic side is just nonexistent for there are still zero signs of it. Haha. But! These things make me happy...happier than I actually been this whole sem, so I think, I am going to continue this!! :D

Friday Fill-ins #142

still could not find the other button

1. My car is still a dream/nonexistent...i know.

2. The field trip for my geography class is coming up next.

3. Lately, things seem okay, however boring that might be Ü.

4. Sleep [or my blog] is one of my favorite 'hiding' places.

5. What happened to being grateful Jaimee? /*says to self*/

6. Finding my faith is not impossible!

7. And as for the weekend, tonight I'm looking forward to [last night, actually] sleeping on my own bed, in our house in the province, tomorrow my plans include [today] training?and Sunday, I want to roam aimlessly around the town!

I know I know, doing this on a Saturday dort of defeats the purpose. heehee. :D

o-k

In a hypocritical effort to stay awake all night, I went out and blogged. Well, to be more general, I went online.

I dont know if I will make it on time for the curfew, or if I will be "more alert and awake" by the time I get home, or if I will be able to review at all...but, yeah, I am online.

Anyway, another thing I dont know is if I will have the capacity to pass the exam tomorrow. Darn, I am beginning to really fear it...and the fact that I will go to the cheerdance competition tomorrow cant change that. Hm. Somehow, I am feeling the need to escape and not sit that exam though I know that the alternative [sure finals, as I am still hoping to be exempted] is more, uh, scary.

I can't discuss this directly with my parents but there are times that I think I cant afford to stay in my course...or even in my school..which is downright sad, I know.

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Anyway, I must go back to the house, I cant let them lock me out. :D

Friday Fill-ins 139

1. He was a _friend, that's why I just can't..

2. Being profoundly normal is what I look forward to most this time of year.

3. My best friend is teasing me about #1. Darn.

4. I want to shift from my current course to another, currently unnamed course, to be honest with you.

5. Appearances can be indeed deceiving.

6. The last person I gave a hug to was _my mum?.

7. And as for the weekend, tonight I'm looking forward to studying, blogging, watching a movie, tomorrow my plans include studying,ho, and sitting the exam and Sunday, I want to go home!


-- i cant seem to view the button, so i just replaced it with this one....

Friday Fill-ins 136

1. Halo-halo is my favorite summertime food.

2. My favorite John Hughes movies is Beethoven.

3. My pup's fur is something I love to touch.

4. The full moon scares and amazes me at the same time.

5. I am feeling sleepy right now, and that's after 3 hours of sleep.

6. When daylight fades, it's cool to watch how dust beautifies the sky.

7. And as for the weekend, tonight I'm looking forward to a DVD marathon!, tomorrow my plans include being able to swim for 25 meters and pass that practicals in swimming and Sunday, I want to be able to rest but no, I must study!

pic from here.

yum!

Pabago-bago

Kailangan kong mag-aral.

Namili ako ng DVD ng HOUSE.

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Nung Sabado, umiiyak ako dahil mukhang hindi ako makakauwi.

Kahapon, nung siguradong makakauwi ako, tinamad akong magbyahe. I had to talk myself into it.

Ngayon, ayaw ko na nanaman lumuwas.

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Kanina, gustong gusto kong magblog.

Ngayon, wala na ako maisulat.

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Madalas may magtanong sa akin kung naiisip ko daw ba magshift. Sagot ko, "every single day."

Kagabi, tinanong aku ng nanay ko kung kaya ko pa daw ba. Sabi ko, "Wala din namang madali. Kakayanin pa."

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I want to have my faith back.

I stopped seeking it.

Sa Comp Shop

Nakakapagod. Nakakahomesick. Nakakaubos ng resources. MAHIRAP.

Kung ipapadefine siguro tung exercise na sinusubukan kong gawin, yan na lahat yun. Parang wala na akong ibang ginagawa kundi ito pero hindi ko pa rin natatapos. Hindi na nga ako umuusad.

Gusto ko pa man din umuwi. Yung mga iba kong kailangan, nasa bahay. Yung mga damit na medyo required sa subjects (running shorts para sa pe, etc), andun pa.

gusto ko rin sana matulog ng tama at gumising ng tama at umatend sa math, pero hindi ko nagagawa. haha. Kasi naman, hanggang ngayon nasa computer shop ako, nagsusubok na pumasok sa server na balak lang magbukas pag oras na ng classes ng mga tao, e hindi lang naman ito ang subject ko.

Dito sa comp shop una kong naramdaman yung sobrang pagod, sobrang lungkot at sobrang panic mode ng sabay sabay. Hay. At on too of all that, nagawa ko pang magblog.

11:30 na. Nagsasara yun gate namin ng 12. Hindi pa rin ako nakakaconnect.