So much for a proper post.

It has been almost a full month, I guess, since I posted something real..not a meme, but a real one with real updates. Hm.

So on with this.

• I sort of received some news saying that I wont be staying in any of the dormitories inside the university.

Flashback: I stayed in the Kalayaan Residence Hall all of my freshman year. I mean, I am from Bataan, a province 3-4 hours away from UP. So I re-applied for my 2nd year. Unfortunately, when my mom called and asked if I was accepted, they said I wasn't. Back to present: So, me and my family would be in QC on Sunday morning, looking for a new house. Hm. That would be interesting, I hope. But really, I am hoping that they just made a mistake in checking the names. Hmm.

• My aunt and cousin are coming back to the Philippines this sunday..

So, after that house or room or aparmet hunting, we will head to the airport to welcome them. Ü They're from the Middle East and I am really looking forward to meeting them again.

• Have I posted some pics of me having curly hair? well, haha, here are some. Ü

Sorry for blurry quality. So there, yeah, I now have curly hair after several years of trying to make it straight. Ü Vanity anyone?

• I'll enroll on June 3..and I could not keep myself from wondering, "how did I survive my first year?"

It was a hell of a first year..haha. I mean, living away from my family for the first time, attending classes in UP, taking up ECE, despising math, despising chem, despising english! haha. My best-liked subjects were a nightmare! hm. Haha. So, I am lookin forward to my 2nd year, really. But yeah, I am scared...very much so.

• I want a pair of sneakers! haha.
• I want to renew my faith. in God. in my family.
• I want a new blog design. Haha. Ü
• I've started light crafting. really really light crafting. hm.
• I want to eat out with my hs classmates. again. I really do miss them.
• I am probably going to Pagudpud on July 4. I just wish I'll be finished enrolling then. heh.

Being Silly.

I saw something today. It made my heart flutter, it got my brain thinking of some uncalled for thoughts.

I know I can't pay the price if I acted upon one of those thoughts.

So here's me saying that I wont do anything regarding the thing that I saw. And here's me wishing circumstances have been different.

It's funny how life turns out the way we never fathom it would. I know it would not happen, not in accordance to my liking [heh]. I know it would not be worth it to even try.

I guess, I'll just keep on pushing the feelings and the thoughts [the thing I saw] evoked and pray that in time they will be forgotten.

I saw a pic of me and of a good friend. it's on his page. the primary pic. normal people would say it's nothing. But I guess I am anything but normal...and that I think I have feelings for my friend.

Now I know exactly how you feel

You told me it was terrible. I did readily agree for I was not really feeling it. But, two more seconds in close to the subject...I know exactly how you feel...and I agree, it's terrible.

I wish I had gone to the mall, right after...

my lunch with Uncle Japhet. Haha.

For if I had, I would sit the exam later with a happy happy heart..haha. I dont know why but I am so inlove with malls, even though I rarely buy..haha. Ü I just love strolling, my thoughts to myself, thinking what the others are thinking, sitting on the huge sofas and just minding my breathing, which would then be labored, for, I believe, I am thinking about it.

Here I am trying to will the hours away before I have to go back to the dorm and review...again [!] for I feel that what I accomplished in two readings is not enough to make me pass the exam later. Haha.

But before that, I have to meet a friend...for the first time. She will be the one who's, I think, gonna be in charge with me during my first days in the Opus Dei...I will be joining, have i told that here? Maybe not..

And even before that, I am determined to wait for my Wordpress blog to open. Arrgh! I've been trying for at least an hour or something. Think I should just give up? Haha.

I am so craving for the smell of home. Or even of the bus....Haha.

Book Reviews [and reading] fall out plus more.

I have not posted reviews in the past few weeks...nor added to the list of books I've read. I dont know what's wrong with me, yet.

Hopefully, it's just one of my episodes, which, hopefully, might end soon.

/sigh/ I feel so tired and so out of myself that I dont even know where to begin describing how I feel.

Anyway,

I spent the majority of the afternoon texting my two bestfriends. One guy, one girl. They went into a misunderstanding and are both, I think and feel, miserable. I originally dont have any plans on posting the whole story but, I changed my mind. I should at least tell the framework.

So.

The girl told the guy she likes him. A lot. This is a fact that she told me a couple of months ago, when it was just starting. I am practically a novice in these things so the only things I could offer her were my two ears. Although, I told her that it's not a good idea to say it to out guy friend..since he spent 3 years in a seminary, only got out this year for a break to think things through. I thought that he would not be capable of dealing with these sort of things.

She still told him. Last January 1st.

He , lets name him B texted her back last friday night, or was it saturday?. And it was not about what she told him last. Well, in fairness to him, he shunned all of us out...not just her...and that COULD mean that he was not really avoiding her or something.

So, friday night or saturday, our phones started buzzing again. Actually, I was with him last January 14th for a birthday celebration of another of our bestfriends. [I have a lot of bestfriends...all of my classmates in highschool + B + many others]. I actually wanted to ask B right then and there....I chickened out.

Anyway, I finally managed to pluck out enough courage to ask him. Of course, I promised to keep this as a secret between the two of us.

I dont know what to do. I. Am. Torn. but I get to keep them both. Whereas to the other option, I say a thing or two to each of them, I lose....well, them.