Why Am I

Why am I looking forward to the day that I will move from one house completely on my own? The idea of packing away my things and then loading them into my car and then opening the door of my new place and then unloading the car and then unpacking the boxes and then arranging the house.

I am excited about the day that I will sit on my clustered living room, having supper with myself, tired, grimy, and planning how the next day would go.

Yet, I have some experiences with moving...two times my whole family moved from one place to another, and then now, I am living in a place all too far from them. All three I had [still having] problems coping up. I always feel homesick or something like that. I sometimes remember the smell of our old house and would feel very very nostalgic and would wish that we are still living there.

So, it is really really odd for me to feel this way. I do. So I am odd. and outta myself. Ü

routine?

Every week, I get on that ride to the university hoping that I'll see you the following weekend.

. . . . hoping still. Haha

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I was a bit disappointed earlier...I saw some of your friends, only you were not with them..haha. Why do I sound some pathetic girl who's over-swooning over [haha, love that] someone. Well, I guess, maybe I am.

This started with my bestfriend's problem..haha..I was talking to her and trying to find out what it was or how could I help...and then she told me what her problem was...two weeks later, I also have the same problem...haha..somehow less complicated than hers, though. Ü

But I really dont think that I am over-swooning right now....maybe during highschool, I was....but now, I just miss being able to catch several glimpses of you, hearing snippets of your conversations with yor friends...I just missed the two of us being in the same school. That's all.. Haha. I am just missing you..haha. sorely so.

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Tomorrow, the hoping starts again...it will go on for the rest of the week until I go home next weekend and alas, all of it will most likely be crushed.

Ü

cheerful, still...though.

Friday Fill-ins

1. Give me a bunch of chocolates and I'll be nice all day Ü.

2. Whenever I feel cranky, I eat. Ü.

3. I wish it's already vacation time.

4. Barbeque chicken meal in Ke*ny Ro*ers was the last thing I ate that was utterly delicious.

5. To live in this world, I read just to keep my sanity.

6. Other than this one, my roommate's blog is the last blog I commented on.

7. And as for the weekend, tonight I'm looking forward to going home, tomorrow my plans include rest and helping do the laundry and Sunday, I want to be with my co-apps having fun!

Siya at ako.

Nagpunta kami sa Katipunan kanina. Nakasakay ako sa car nya, habang nag-ddrive siya. Andami namen napag-usapan, though ang lapit lang naman ng Katipunan sa UP.

Tinuruan nita ako kung paano magpunta dun sa pupuntahan namin kapag hindi na niya ako masusundo..sosyal ko namn, diba? Hehe.

Tinanong niya rin ako about my college life and all..kung naka-adjust na daw ba ako, kung maayos daw ba studies ko...kung feeling ko daw ba tama yung course ko..atsaka kung masaya daw ba ako...

Tapos, andun na kami sa pupuntahan namin. Inikot namin yung place, nagpakilala sa mga ibang tao dun and nakipagkwentuhan sa director nung lugar.

Mabait silang lahat...mukhang gugustuhin kong magpunta lagi. Ü

Siya si Ms. Agnes...dentist. Pumunta kami sa student formation center, "DANWI"..ng Opus Dei...

I am seeking my faith...Ü

5-minute blogging, which has been distracted by a great blog and is down to two.

I am leaving in less than an hour...I still have things to accomplish before that, of course, as usual with me..hehe.

First would be to pack!!! haha.

Then, I need to eat or my mom and dad would cream me the next time I go home..

Wake my brother up..

Take a bath, which usually takes about 20 to 30 minutes....I know, it's terribly fast but, hey, everything's gotta be fast-paced now, right? hehe

And of course, bloggg! Haha..

Only, I did not.

I finished my MP yesterday, at around 5 pm...

Flashback, flashback:

I went back to the university last Monday, several hours after I put my last post up. I was feeling panicky, for I had not accomplished anything: my MP still wasn't working, I hadn't reviewed for the upcoming exam [heck, I still have not today...the exam TOMORROW!], and I had not sleep well...the very thing I was most hopeful about.

I resolved to just rest that Monday night...saying "I'll figure out a way tomorrow, that's for sure"..haha. If only I knew...haha...that Tuesday will come and go without the promise of an MP.

Then, yesterday, two people went out of their way to help me be logical. I could not have been more thankful. Haha. It was just at about lunch time yesterday that I figured what algo to use..hehe. Ü

Back to present:

Here I am, typing away...doing the inevitable...having fun [blogging is fun, yes?] after some, uhm, hardship[?]..haha.

So, later, I will print the lectures for the exam tomorrow and hope again that I'll be able to go through all of them tonight.

Happy Friday the 13th! hehe..

oh, and by the way, Happy Birthday to my MOM [tomorrow]!!!

I gotta finish this sometime after 6 am!

I am so very determined. Haha. ÜÜ

My MP is going to be okay. Then I can sleep...sweet sleep. Ü

I wish I had gone to the mall, right after...

my lunch with Uncle Japhet. Haha.

For if I had, I would sit the exam later with a happy happy heart..haha. I dont know why but I am so inlove with malls, even though I rarely buy..haha. Ü I just love strolling, my thoughts to myself, thinking what the others are thinking, sitting on the huge sofas and just minding my breathing, which would then be labored, for, I believe, I am thinking about it.

Here I am trying to will the hours away before I have to go back to the dorm and review...again [!] for I feel that what I accomplished in two readings is not enough to make me pass the exam later. Haha.

But before that, I have to meet a friend...for the first time. She will be the one who's, I think, gonna be in charge with me during my first days in the Opus Dei...I will be joining, have i told that here? Maybe not..

And even before that, I am determined to wait for my Wordpress blog to open. Arrgh! I've been trying for at least an hour or something. Think I should just give up? Haha.

I am so craving for the smell of home. Or even of the bus....Haha.

Friday Fill-ins

1. Please don't tell me the test's been moved to an earlier sched!.for that would mean I missed it. aw..

2. Can you function well in the morning, especially in this weather?

3. The color green makes me want to be on that bus headed home! [I dont know why..but it does!]

4. I have a craving for cold coffee and a real conversation with my bestfriend..aww...

5. If my life had a pause button, I'd pause it now.

6. Eyes are the most honest 'features' [or parts] of a person.

7. And as for the weekend, tonight (yesterday night) I'm looking forward to reviewing for the exam, really Ü, tomorrow (today) my plans include _having lunch with Uncle, and reviewing still, then sit the exam..huhu and Sunday, I want to rise early and be home early!

Friday was no good either.

I did something completely idiotic and stupid [is that redundant?] last Friday. It involved wanting to ditch classes, coming to classes late and homework undone, and pissing the hell out of my instructor...plus many many more. I dont even know why I am not melting out of shame here.

I could not even look back at last Friday and not be ashamed of myself...for once, I am seriously wishing that I am someone else.